My Miscarriage. I Didn't "Lose" My Baby!
The phone rang on 24 April 2017 and I could see on the Caller ID that it was my OBGYN. My heart sank. I had been in on Friday for bloodwork. I answered the phone and my worst fears were confirmed when the nurse said, “Your hCG has dropped by 20,000. (Silence) You’re having a miscarriage and the doctor wants to see you right away.” It felt like the earth had opened up and was swallowing me whole. It had all been such a blur since finding out I was pregnant at 45, processing it emotionally, accepting it and then finally looking forward to having a second child. Now, just as suddenly as it had begun, it was all gone.
After experiencing a miscarriage I suffered in silence and then realized there is nothing to be ashamed of and it is actually more common than I realized. I share my very personal story in the video below in the hopes of challenging us all to take the shame and secrecy out of miscarriage.
Simply, Tanika
Miscarriage, pregnancy loss, infertility, fertility, hcg, OBGYN